Knowing a person for a month is different from knowing a person for a year.

I was damn damn damn angry yesterday! But to avoid nagginess, I put it into another form.. -->Outcome of talking to wall (click on the image for clearer view)

And my sis is staying at home too long, she seems like she quit her job again. I seriously can't stand the way she thinks for herself!!! She just happily asked me if she could borrow thing from me, I thought it was itouch. But she wanted my laptop. -.- then what I used? I no need to go school ah? Jitao no brain! I also damn bad mood when I returned home, so thanks to my mood swing I managed to reject her in her face!!! "huh? My small one is netbook not for game play, my big one I need for school, I don't want to make it chui." she already has a laptop and a desktop, adding on she is working. By right, she should just leave me alone and buy herself one!!!! My big laptop was bought by my own salary. So just f-k off. Very pissed already. :( :(

even if there were so many unhappiness going on, but today there was something that caught us!!! Lol!
Hint: I was trumatised after hearing music playing from yongrong xiaojie!!!  

Thoughts: >>> In order to sustain in a long run, ingredients like understanding, listening and communcation are needed. Very important! Dont always only think of yourself, the world dont only spins for YOU! But ALL OF US! Live the BEST OF YOUR LIFE!! Present and future are what it counts!!!

Tomorrow, going to have my poster printed and going through the presentation and question asking!!! JIAYOU WORXX TEAM MATES! ^^

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Pissed off to the max!

Ok.. I'm in the anger state!!! I freaky angry with my sister! FISH HER! I'm so angry to don't know which alien planet! She thinks that the earth rotates because of her, PLEASE!!! The earth rotates because of US! She thinks that she is the only one in the family lor.. She ALWAYS complain about us this and that, making it seems like she has no weaknesses. OH LOOK INTO YOUR own REFLECTION! Even 1hour is not enough to finish stating what are your weaknesses. Say me, you yourself ALWAYS ALWAYS never lock the freaky door before you went off. Never switch off the fan before you leave the room at times, toilet light you do also forget! So don't say like you NEVER EVER forget before. And also kidnapping my pillow WITHOUT MY PERMISSION, making me panic before I sleep, "WTH! Where is my pillow?!" ............................................................................................ and more.............. SO PLEASE REFLECT ON YOURSELF BEFORE YOU START PICKING ON US! Shut the Freak up!

I don't even care if you read this, I'm sure you also hate me.

But I also don't mind if you see, at least my message is been conveyed through.

I had been tahan-ing you, you are not the only one in the family.

We are all thankful to you if you could use just 10% of your thoughfulness and use -10% of you selfishness..

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If you think that's the way, you do it. If you regret, your taiji le!

The devils are talking non stop at my ears!!! All the negative conversation I have been hearing from then till now... Negative thoughts keep flowing in... GOD DAMN IT! SHUT THE HELL UP! If it continues like that.. I shall end myself with all possible way!!! TRY ME! I do not wish to talk to you till tomorrow.. I shall sleep and forget.

Even though the devils told me not to study for ut, I shall ignore it for once. Another devil makes me feel so sleepy and telling me to sleep without doing my evening gongyo, I shall ignore it twice.

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URGH! I HATE IT!

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WHAT THE HELL! I am damn PISSED OFF by my sister! I CANT STAND HER UNTIDINESS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ALMOST KILLED ME!!! Tell me who on earth will place a cup which was wet on the outside on top of the plug which was in the socket? I FOUND OUT WHEN I SWITCHED OFF THAT BLOODY SWITCH AND I HEAR A ELECTRIC SOUND AFTER THAT! When I told her she just say, "oh really?" -.-!

This is really killing me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I REALLY HATE HER TO THE CORE WHEN THERE ARE TIMES LIKE THAT! When she will start to really think for the other? When she will bloody listen to my mother and doing her parts by at least wash her filthy bowls or utensils she used? And at least placed all the dirty clothes in the basket in the kitchen rather than on my keyboard?

I have so many so many to complain about her that she did for the past few years! Each time I really want to voice out, mummy will tell me not to. Say must be harmonic! PUI! PUI! PUI! Then she can shout and grumble at us, why cant I????????????????????????????????? I'M FUMING MAD! DON'T EVER! EVER TRY TO COOL ME DOWN! HEARD THAT?

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What a turn out.

$10 fly~

OK! you! you! YOU! STOP MAKING ME UPSET! Seriously I really wanted to break myself free from all those whatever shit you all have landed me on! You all have been laughing, and adding on like nobody's business! I. HATE. IT. I. HATE. IT. When you all said to stop, but you all didn't mean what you all say. LIAR!

You guys make me feel worse BOTH directly and indirectly! I really have the impulsive to really left IF! I have already finished my food. I just can't ignore you all totally, I just can't do it. I will feel bad, and I don't know why. I really tried to control, but you all just continue until I really couldn't take it. And I stopped my "nonsense" as I do not want to see sad faces too. And I swear.. POLY LIFE SERIOUSLY SUCK TO THE MAX, DOUBLE MAX OR EVEN TRIPLE MAX at times! I never face things like that when I am in secondary school, like so much of "disturbing". Ah gong and sheena are the best out of the best!

Please don't apologise or ask anything, I'm fine. I just want to find somewhere to vent out everything, I'm maybe harsh on my words. But I could never do that in front of you all, I can't even imagine that. You could say I what, but just leave me alone okay? I'm always trying to avoid all possibility to create this kind of situation, and I can tell you I'M DAMN TIRED OF IT! What's the point if I say out about it? Words are forgotten again, and it will start once more. I DON'T WANT! DON'T WANT!

Feel like ending everything by following what xiumin always did... But I couldn't bear to do it too, but I did think of it. I'm confused, sad, angry, helpless, lost... everything and anything. I just find it damn irritating. I don't want to LOL (laugh out loud), I want to COL (cry out loud)! So many people shooting me, I can't say anything much. How I wish huiyan was there, she sure will help me... miss you badly out of a sudden. Perhaps I may over reacted or something else, but ... I just hope it stops. Go away please. please. If I'm wearing about ten shoes, I will be so tempted to throw it at you all straight into your faces! Only I can hear myself crying... And I think that I can express myself better when I'm alone.

Don't know why feel so hungry now after pouring out everything, only my emotions not my food. I think I better get to sleep, going to 2am.

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I PROMISE myself never to go out when that "FREAK" is around... NEVER! EVER! AGAIN!!!

This words are so totally true! for me. *SCREAMS!* I'm feel so upset upside down, left and right, in and out, CENTER! EVERYWHERE! :( Nothing can describe how I felt at that time when no one was there with me. Even though I have the rest, but they were like invisible. Fatin why you not there.

Anyway this was my HORRIBLE journey for today...

• Meet yangyi, danny and ugine at bishan
• train-ed to harbourfront to meet ynez
• accompany ugine to build a bear
• then find that moron with bushed hair
• Dinner
• meet angie at GV
• Arcade
• Home

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People, PLEASE PAY attention... 上课咯！

TODAY.. JAPANESE LESSON! lol... damn funny, we all wondering whether we attend the right lesson not. drawing class or Japanese class? Then that toot ram bang my head into the wall, pain lor! U owe me more candy canes! BLEH! then spiderman like joker sia. wanted to teach us how to write in the end he kana shoot by us because he writes wrongly! after the lesson I get to play... VIOLIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OMG! it was damn cool! but then... my hand a bit aching. :D Failed to play the twinkle star, as I only manage to find C and G notes. SHE GOT TRUMPET SIA! urgh... but can't play. :( jinsi, when is my next violin's lesson? :D we had our lunch at mac.. but good girl like me go home eat :P Tomorrow got to do souvenirs at SYC... sleep well and chant that RASHES GO AWAY!

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asshole la! please la, I think I am very unfortunate to have a friend like you!
at least I not like you who is SO unwilling to help your friends, at least I help what I know.
UNLIKE YOU! I can't be bothered about you!treat it whether you know who I am refering to now.

Don't blame me if I never help you!

I really give up on you.because this is not the first time yo..............................

Please go reflect yourself in the MIRROR! and let me WARN YOU!

don't get frighten by YOUR OWN LOOK! because your inner self is so damn UGLY!

I really hope that I will not soft hearten when I see you! ASSHOLE!!

and I hope what I am thinking is not the truth, and I pray that I really misunderstand you.

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