I hope I can turn back the clock, but I can’t.

怎么办... My friend is right... what if my words make you think of doing something silly. I definitely going to be missing almost the entire being of myself. It’s not affecting just you, like a domino effect, it spreads to your family too. I’m hurting you and your family, it’s not just you anymore.

All along you talked to someone who hurt you, pushing you into an awful situation, must be at your worst point. I shouldn’t be expecting you to trust me enough to share your problem with, this is what we can relate to a saying that goes, “everything happened for a reason”. This is the reason, I can only blame myself. What I cannot forgive myself is by falsely hoping I can help, but I did the exact opposite.

Courage, needing it to apologise to you while not running away and be strong to convey my apologises properly. 10 years ago, I lost part of me... the feeling was really terrible. Having it again for the second time is not for the faint heart, I’m really afraid to see you again... I’m embarrassed and felt bad.