May 2015

It's May already!!! I thought of my comrade again. I think I must let it go and do this in a "clean" matter! I have been dragging this extra "weight" on me for a good five years, frankly speaking it's bad. A bad habit of mine is wanting to look back, then I get upset ALL OVER AGAIN. It's such a deserving consequence, but it did not stopped me from repeating.

Out of randomness,I give a thought about myself and I seem to realise that my friends around me do not ask me much about me in a more... Hmm... "In-depth" way? Is it because I put my thoughts on social media and that eliminate the thoughts to ask? Am I an introvert person? Do I make people feel that I'm a faker? Can I be considered as a good friend to others? Or am I just not that good in expressing myself? Did I give people around me a feeling that I do not want to be asked? Haha!! All these thoughts run so wildly at times when I can't fall asleep....

Just wanted to share with EVERYONE whatever happened don't judge by the surface, there's more if you explore further. If you think my character is bothering you, you can share with me. If it's within my control and it worth to change, why not? Perhaps in a way, I'm slow in getting hints here and there, but I feel even appreciative if you can give me the answer instead of just dropping hints. Cause I do not want to miss important hints or answer. And I just don't want to hinder anyone too, it's so burdened to be other's burden. 

--------------------------I will never want to stop improving myself. [2.08am]